Lazy Lazy Long Weekend

There so many major major events for the week. There's the infamy of a mismanaged hostage drama and the fame of having one of the top 5 places in Ms. U. I just couldn't accept that a plight of one man can damage our nation in so many aspects. My take was that there were many mistakes in handling the situation but there's never a win win scenario in a hostage drama and we ended up with the bad side of the scale. For all its worth, our country is not necessarily one of the worst in the world but we are among the top in terms of transparency that everything is always magnified. We do have to invest in PR build up and minimize the larger than life coverage of events.

Then the major major answer. It was a difficult question to start with. I for one can't think of one event that would be a big mistakes. I guess this dwells from the Philippines resilient nature that even at the worst of times, we still find ways to move past it so we don't remember them as mistakes but just as events or experiences. We always just seem to find ways to smile.

It was a busy busy week as well as I was barely in the confides of the office having to conduct a plant tour in Bataan and hold the audit planning meeting and there goes all the regular office to dos piling up in the yet to do list. Oh well. I still am on my lazy lazy long weekend mode so that will have to wait. Midway into the long weekend, I've almost been at home most of the time. Funny, how there are so many little things I have to do at home which I don't do because of the lack of time. Good thing, it was a car less day yesterday and I was also able to do the small things like organizing my files, cleaning my room, installing softwares, etc.

While I'm all for taking into account the minor details and small stuff but I can't take why people make a big deal about everything like how a simple scheduling of meeting could end up flooding my mailbox with all those lectures. I guess some people are not secure enough with what they know that they take the opportunity to oversell their point. It doesn't make you less of a person to check out other people's perspective. Anyway, I can stand my ground on discussions even despite my mild manner ways.

I want to resume my laziness on this long weekend. =>

Excess Inkblogs: Time is such a powerful tool since it does a lot... we reach our goals... heal our wounds... learn new perspective... While we can't control it, we just have trust that in time, everything will fall in right place... All it takes is time and effort.

The Tide is Turning

The tide is turning and I'm a bit more upbeat and in rhythm and just hopeful that the good days are finally approaching. One of the most difficult situation to be in is being left in the middle of uncertainty wherein you are not sure where you stand. It is really better to just take the fall and take the downside cause at least you'll know that the only way to go is up. It may be a longer way but at least it gets you moving on. Redemption always starts from within.

I'm glad that I have a renewed focus on my health. Not only have I started running again, I am now also taking some time to run during weekdays to get myself fit. I still have a long way to go in being leaner but at least I'm on the right track. It was really fun to take this early evening runs and it's a welcome change after spending months just bumming around home in hibernation mode after office. Hopefully, I can have a consistent effort on this. The goal is simple, be better.

I guess that's a modest goal cause life won't always be fair, people won't always give you what is due and situations won't always be the way you like to look at them but we can always choose to strive to be better. We never lose this way. We may not have the things we desire but there'll always be something in store if we just wait for the real story unfolds. We can have our happy endings but it will just be a matter of time and effort.

And about being fair, I don't get it why some people, even at an advanced level in their careers, have some issue with young people performing well and achieving so much. They tend to be competitive and disruptive. For all its worth everything I have, I worked for and the respect I get from counter parties speaks for itself. People love to claim the credit and pass on the blame. Accountability starts from the top.

Oh well, all will be in its proper perspective in due time and we'll have our time at the helm and a time when things fall apart. I'm just glad that things are in the upside.

Excess Inkblogs: An afternoon nap is priceless.

I'm Done

Just got the half year rush off my back and some things did came off easier as expected. It was great to be able to squeeze in another peak at the bright lights in the Bund and the World Expo and even if the trip was just a full three days including the travel time.

One thing I had so much of is the ME-YOU persona of certain people (ME for the credit and YOU for the blame). Oh well, I'm trying to get used to it and I'd rather be the silent achiever lurking in the shadows. What goes around comes around and credit will be given not to those who grab it but to those who deserve it but then again it's also quite fulfilling getting the job done. It's quite fun doing the impossible.

I'M DONE... I'm done whining nor sulking nor living in the shadows of the past, I'd just want to be a better person. Still have some things to work on... a trimmer waist and fatter wallet... haha... I have a few runs scheduled ahead so I hope the weather also allows me to run during weeknights as to more savings, that's a tougher task from my impulsive spending ways.

And being better means being less affected by the annoyances of everyday. I guess that's called numbness already. We don't always get the things we yearn for but we can always choose to be better. Some proper endings are not there so instead of contemplating on how some things are not in place, I'd rather take steps or leaps or strides and if it leads me back to a familiar place, I'd be happy and if not, I'll be hopeful that a better story have yet to unravel. My heart will relearn how to beat faster again.

Off with tomorrow as much as I'd like to always live by the day, I should get to look at the possibility on what if tomorrow comes??? It's not something to fear but something to look forward to so anything goes... =>

Excess Inkblogs: I really admire people who have the courage to say they are wrong rather than hide in a barrage of excuses. It doesn't make one less of a person to commit mistakes. It's not something to be proud of but it happens so might as well have ownership for one's action.

Leaving

I'm in my usual procrastination mode on packing for an early morning trip to Shanghai tomorrow and one of the reason is I know its gonna be several facebook-less days in China plus all the stress and fireworks involved in the board meeting. At least, I get to peak at the World Expo but I think based on recent event I might not be able to squeeze it in. Excitement level has gone down further.

It's a bit more peaceful this week but looks like the worst is yet to come and as always I'm not looking forward to the board meeting. It always seem not fair that all the work falls on my shoulder and all the blame that goes with it. Imagine, a big part of last week was spent with meeting ISP providers and IT people to remedy our ever so inefficient network and oracle system. I'm still wondering why I'm the one doing this things and being blamed for some delays when I'm in finance. I just hope some people grow their own spine and take some accountability.

I'm glad I was able to spend some time away from work... meeting some friends today... had a ran at the Fort last Tuesday... and a lot of time at sickbay, I'm still hoping my cough will go away before my trip early tomorrow... It's the second straight board meeting that I'll be flying in not in my peak of health. It's becoming a pattern now but I'll be able to manage my presentations.

Some perspective has shifted again and this time, I'm seeing things in a different light and a bit pessimistic in things I have to do and maybe it makes some sense. I guess there are always risks we have to take, even if we end up winning or losing, just to get the answers we are searching. Well, I'll be leaving that thought for a while and...

I have to pack my stuff now and maybe... just maybe... catch some sleep...