What Goes Around...

What goes around, comes around.

It's never been as evident as it is this week. Some goodwill have been tarnished because of self-gratifying ways of some people. I just hope that people did learn their lesson. If you don't do the right thing, it will eventually haunt you. It will be another uphill climb. The good part is I'm leveling up my efforts and is more determined than ever. I'll be making bigger waves that will ripple and I won't let people's insecure ways stop me this time. I work best when the going gets tough.

The tough ride has began this week... earlier deadlines... numerous meetings and presentations... more involved in all aspects... endless queries... and a tougher persona... It's on!!! I'm done getting things done in the shadows. I'm stepping on the gas and getting past all the annoyances to be several steps ahead. It's a lot more stressful but I'm up to the challenge and the goal is getting it done within the regular day. I still would want to keep my work-life balance.

And about that balance, I'm still able to sneak in a few weeknight runs and even join a fun run this weekend. I'm glad that my pace has improved and I've officially entered myself at 10K in next's month's run. That's another level up but I do have a lot of work to do to prepare for that event. At least, I have a goal in place and a plan in store. Running is no more an addiction to me, it's now a lifestyle and I'm loving every stride of it.

Another level up is that I have gotten my iPhone 4, now already fully clothed and pampered. I haven't got to test it yet though as I have yet to activate my sim but the contents are already in the unit and I can't wait trying to run with its GPS feature. I did wait for this and I'm glad I got mine during the launch even if I almost miss my meeting for this. Sometimes, my priorities are misplaced... hehe.. I'm also back to the Globe network, at least for my office number. I'll have my DUO activated soon and that's me being more easily accessible.

I'm glad I ended this one on a relaxing note with a full body massage. I'm looking forward to another week of multi tasking and running. Somehow, I'm sure it won't be an easy week but it's fine with me. New doors are opening and I may be taking some big steps but it's still wait and see... =>

Thoughtless Thoughts: The world won't always move in the direction we desire but we can always choose to fight the tides for the battles we believe in...

Some Walls are Not Meant to be Broken

Even at your best efforts, you eventually run through a wall... Maybe to stop and think a while... Maybe to learn to climb and strive harder... But the wall we face or the wall we build are just products of our experiences... A defense mechanism or our means of protecting people. It's been a difficult time trying to breach past some walls built in the recent past by people who do matter and I now come to the conclusion that some walls are not meant to be broken and I'll just live by the comfort that some bridges do open up for me to explore new territories. I guess that's how life has to prosper, get past the things you can't control and try to make out the most of the things you can.

There are always tradeoffs. We don't have to get the best of everything cause it'll leave room for us aspire. With proper perspective, everything would make sense and we do end up in a better scenario than the one we expected. The one who is able to take the lessons of life's blessings and beatings prosper the most. It's no use to beat oneself up with past mistakes cause you'll always have your shot at redemption.

I'm glad that I spent the weekend in Baguio. I was able to catch up with cousins at the Manor including one expecting a major major event. Looks like I'm homebound again in a few weeks. I really like the ambience at the Manor somehow, it gets to remind me of the Baguio City I grew up in. I did get to see my favorite inaanak, Yna, who's all grown up now. It seems just like yesterday that I was playing with her five year old version. It was a nice dinner at Don Hen with family. In short, I'm stuffed for the weekend. The weather was cool and rainy and it made me feel the weather I loved in this city.

I'll get to burn all that I've gain over the weekend during my weeknight runs. Running is slowly now becoming a part of my habit and I'm looking forward to getting a chance to join another race next weekend. I hope that I can maintain a fit lifestyle. I have to work on my speed and stamina to take on a longer distance. I still have a long way to go but I'll get there. I'll always try to make time for this activities.

One thing I take pride of is that I have effectively managed my time to fit in the running routine. I take in the criticism that I tend to be complacent by people who just judge my work based on the time spent at the office. I'll always stand by the quality of the output of what I've done whether its done in 8 hours or 18 hours. I work to live but I don't live to work. I'd also want to explore new avenues like fund-raising, consulting, teaching and my first love, writing on the side. I guess, I'm born to multi-task. I feel that more bridges are opening and I'm nothing but excited to go on new frontiers...

The Best and Worst of Times

Sometimes I get to feel that it's always harder to be the good person. After all the hard work and all the effort, people would just come in, undermine your and your team's capabilities and take all the credit. It's really easier just being the insecure credit-grabber but I guess doing the right thing may not always be the easiest and most rewarding alternative but in the long run, it is the most satisfying.

I'd like to think that insecurity is the best form of flattery because if people need to pull you down just to stay afloat, it just means that you have something they covet. I don't think they'd be anywhere close to getting what they want cause everything starts with respect and if you can't respect other people, then the best you can get is just fear from them and not their respect or admiration. It does make a whole world of difference. Nothing permanent is ever gained by taking advantage of people.

I would want to seek a sanctuary where people are more secure. That's probably one of the reason why I'm so hooked into running since in running you only get to compete against yourself and that form of competition can only bring out the best in you. I'm glad I am able to sneak a few runs at night and able to join a fun run in this jam-packed long weekend which also had a great party with the AGSB Gang at Republiq and a Lazy boy 'Despicable Me' movie experience. I guess this weekend was well-worth all those difficult days at work.

Despite the harder road I'm taking, I still feel upbeat and that's because I believe if you're ready for the worst, you're ready for the best. Even if I end on the downside on all the possible scenarios that could pop out, I'd still would find a way of doing something meaningful. I may not get everything I want, I may not win all my battles, I may not have fulfilled all my goals and so on... I know I'll be fine... and now, if things go on the upside, then I'll be ready to reap the rewards...

Life is really simple... we are the one that creates the circumstances that complicates it...

Excess Inkblogs: To such a perfect stranger, I don't know if you still visit these pages but I know you get to celebrate your day in a few days. Though everything now lies in the distant past, I'd like you to know that I sincerely wish for your happiness.

Run-A-Holic

I'm addicted... addicted to you...

I'm starting to be a Run-A-Holic... I just had my second run in the past two weeks and I'm already registered in another a few weeks from now. I'm squeezing a few evening training runs during weekdays though it's quite difficult lately due to the rainy weather. I'm real glad that I'm starting to focus again on fitness. I don't feel sluggish nor bloated anymore and I may have dropped a few pounds. I'll be on full gear training mode in a few weeks and may move on to 10k runs after a few more runs. I'm loving every bit of this new found passion to run.

I'm not necessarily running away from something but it does break the monotony of everyday life which is somewhat filled by now in managing difficult to deal with people. Some people feel inadequate enough to make it a mission to be a fault-finder and a credit grabber. Except that it gets annoying at a certain time, I don't mind being blamed though it really gets preposterous when even non-finance related items are now being blamed on my people. People don't really have the spine to admit their own mistakes and take responsibility on their turf. Blame all you want but my satisfaction is a job well done with or without the credit due to it. At the end of the day, people won't support people just pretending to know-it-all. Humility always matter.

Life is too short for bitterness, anger and hatred so even if I'd want to go on a warpath. I'd take a professional approach on just doing what I have to do and just let people tire themselves sending rude, inappropriate and unprofessional emails. The day will come that all this will bounce back to its source. What goes around comes around.

And about running in the race of life. We do always want to chase the happy endings but the truth about life is not really about endings. We run, we walk, we strive, we celebrate, we mourn, we love, we hate, we win, we lose and we get to expect a heartbeat stopping chase but what matters the most is taking a journey worth having and savoring each phase of the trip and when it comes to a point that the happy ending is not there when everything have been said and done just look back at the path you took and you'll know it was well worth it.

You never really end up losing on what you give to the world because one way or another it will come back not when you expect it but when you need it the most. With that in mind, I am happy that I did give out as much as I can.

Happiness is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony. =>

Lazy Lazy Long Weekend

There so many major major events for the week. There's the infamy of a mismanaged hostage drama and the fame of having one of the top 5 places in Ms. U. I just couldn't accept that a plight of one man can damage our nation in so many aspects. My take was that there were many mistakes in handling the situation but there's never a win win scenario in a hostage drama and we ended up with the bad side of the scale. For all its worth, our country is not necessarily one of the worst in the world but we are among the top in terms of transparency that everything is always magnified. We do have to invest in PR build up and minimize the larger than life coverage of events.

Then the major major answer. It was a difficult question to start with. I for one can't think of one event that would be a big mistakes. I guess this dwells from the Philippines resilient nature that even at the worst of times, we still find ways to move past it so we don't remember them as mistakes but just as events or experiences. We always just seem to find ways to smile.

It was a busy busy week as well as I was barely in the confides of the office having to conduct a plant tour in Bataan and hold the audit planning meeting and there goes all the regular office to dos piling up in the yet to do list. Oh well. I still am on my lazy lazy long weekend mode so that will have to wait. Midway into the long weekend, I've almost been at home most of the time. Funny, how there are so many little things I have to do at home which I don't do because of the lack of time. Good thing, it was a car less day yesterday and I was also able to do the small things like organizing my files, cleaning my room, installing softwares, etc.

While I'm all for taking into account the minor details and small stuff but I can't take why people make a big deal about everything like how a simple scheduling of meeting could end up flooding my mailbox with all those lectures. I guess some people are not secure enough with what they know that they take the opportunity to oversell their point. It doesn't make you less of a person to check out other people's perspective. Anyway, I can stand my ground on discussions even despite my mild manner ways.

I want to resume my laziness on this long weekend. =>

Excess Inkblogs: Time is such a powerful tool since it does a lot... we reach our goals... heal our wounds... learn new perspective... While we can't control it, we just have trust that in time, everything will fall in right place... All it takes is time and effort.

The Tide is Turning

The tide is turning and I'm a bit more upbeat and in rhythm and just hopeful that the good days are finally approaching. One of the most difficult situation to be in is being left in the middle of uncertainty wherein you are not sure where you stand. It is really better to just take the fall and take the downside cause at least you'll know that the only way to go is up. It may be a longer way but at least it gets you moving on. Redemption always starts from within.

I'm glad that I have a renewed focus on my health. Not only have I started running again, I am now also taking some time to run during weekdays to get myself fit. I still have a long way to go in being leaner but at least I'm on the right track. It was really fun to take this early evening runs and it's a welcome change after spending months just bumming around home in hibernation mode after office. Hopefully, I can have a consistent effort on this. The goal is simple, be better.

I guess that's a modest goal cause life won't always be fair, people won't always give you what is due and situations won't always be the way you like to look at them but we can always choose to strive to be better. We never lose this way. We may not have the things we desire but there'll always be something in store if we just wait for the real story unfolds. We can have our happy endings but it will just be a matter of time and effort.

And about being fair, I don't get it why some people, even at an advanced level in their careers, have some issue with young people performing well and achieving so much. They tend to be competitive and disruptive. For all its worth everything I have, I worked for and the respect I get from counter parties speaks for itself. People love to claim the credit and pass on the blame. Accountability starts from the top.

Oh well, all will be in its proper perspective in due time and we'll have our time at the helm and a time when things fall apart. I'm just glad that things are in the upside.

Excess Inkblogs: An afternoon nap is priceless.

I'm Done

Just got the half year rush off my back and some things did came off easier as expected. It was great to be able to squeeze in another peak at the bright lights in the Bund and the World Expo and even if the trip was just a full three days including the travel time.

One thing I had so much of is the ME-YOU persona of certain people (ME for the credit and YOU for the blame). Oh well, I'm trying to get used to it and I'd rather be the silent achiever lurking in the shadows. What goes around comes around and credit will be given not to those who grab it but to those who deserve it but then again it's also quite fulfilling getting the job done. It's quite fun doing the impossible.

I'M DONE... I'm done whining nor sulking nor living in the shadows of the past, I'd just want to be a better person. Still have some things to work on... a trimmer waist and fatter wallet... haha... I have a few runs scheduled ahead so I hope the weather also allows me to run during weeknights as to more savings, that's a tougher task from my impulsive spending ways.

And being better means being less affected by the annoyances of everyday. I guess that's called numbness already. We don't always get the things we yearn for but we can always choose to be better. Some proper endings are not there so instead of contemplating on how some things are not in place, I'd rather take steps or leaps or strides and if it leads me back to a familiar place, I'd be happy and if not, I'll be hopeful that a better story have yet to unravel. My heart will relearn how to beat faster again.

Off with tomorrow as much as I'd like to always live by the day, I should get to look at the possibility on what if tomorrow comes??? It's not something to fear but something to look forward to so anything goes... =>

Excess Inkblogs: I really admire people who have the courage to say they are wrong rather than hide in a barrage of excuses. It doesn't make one less of a person to commit mistakes. It's not something to be proud of but it happens so might as well have ownership for one's action.